Embarking on a Journey to Find my Passions
I’ve never been one to talk about my passions. Part of that is the puritanical way in which I was raised (the very word – passion – was definitely NOT part of my vocabulary). And part of it is the fact that there was literally never much that I was passionate about.
I have always loved to write. Crafting fictions and poems from my youth, but it was never something that I felt a yearning to do. It was just something that I always did.
I have always loved music. I played flute in junior high and whereas I never excelled there was always something great about seeing a piece of music come together. I’ve also loved listening to music. Not tied to genre, I definitely like to explore.
Likewise, there are things that I have adamantly avoided, like public speaking or the plague. I’m not one to get up in front of groups and speak. I’ve also never really fancied myself a good teacher, which is ironic considering that we now homeschool (more on that in a moment).
I’ve found things that I would describe as my jam (like music) or my happy place (like cooking), but I’ve never really had something that was my thing. This thing that is mine and that I do and if I don’t do it then I just don’t function. I’ve never really had a passion before. Even when going to college, I couldn’t decide on a major or “What I wanted to do when I grew up.”
But the Lord has been bringing me on a journey. Late last year, He gave me the word ‘Joy’ as my #oneword for 2016. I hadn’t thought about how all that would play out, but I have been truly trying to seek out joy and learn more about what brings me joy and how to seek it out.
By way of this, I came up with three goals that I want to work on for the year: Focusing/Meditating on Joy, Running, and Writing/Blogging. As I set these goals, I realized that writing was part of joy for me. I realized that writing was more than just something that I liked or enjoyed. It brought me joy. It really was a passion!
I’ve since discerned that I have a true passion for women’s ministry. God broke through my public speaking/teaching barriers when I was at a chapel that needed teachers and I was pretty much it. I’m still not super confident, but I’ve learned the value of women studying and learning about God and His Word and have submitted myself to doing what needs to be done to accomplish that.
It is still a learning process, but at 35 I’d say that it is about time for me to figure out my passions and actually do something about it. I’ve got two goals (one is this blog) that I’m actively working toward achieving that coincide with my passions. Hopefully, I will share these along the way and how God has set these passions in ways that will honor and glorify Him.
What about you? What are your passions and how are you using those to achieve goals or glorify God?